Without Eyes, The Sky Is Not beautiful.

SOP: Best quality one can have is the ability to say "my bad, sorry." Share pain to share life. Lifting the burden of another shows strength greater than any muscle. Preconceptions obstruct a childlike approach which inhibits emotional connectivity (at least for me). Many cry out to quench insecurity, woe to those with great need not motivated to stand out. There are somethings that no one will understand, just pray that you have few. Music is not a pleasure, it's a necessity. There is no support groups for the uncommon, the strange, and the indescribable.

Update: Found a great spot by the river at the cost of a wound that needs stitches it'll never see. "I feel the power of packing flour in to bags every hour. Runnin the packer is like sniffin lacquer...". Logic: True- truth is annoying when we're wrong True- we don't like things that annoy us... you do the math. Wow, I really felt good about this post, now I feel like crap... I miss school.

Of The Few

Update: Job: flour power. Soon to be private Gieselman... hoo rah. I've accepted my strength which is a benefit to those who see it as a weakness. "Cut down before you cut out" applies to many different areas of life including food, drink, entertainment and even friends. For me, there is fine line between great pain and great joy. My feelings towards jeans are bipolar. Kevin Bacon is. If making the world better makes your life worse is Spock still right? If love falls in a forest and no one is there to hear it, does it make a sound? Technology hasn't stopped advancing, there is no limits to tech, cells are like small machines... what if we're advanced tech? I've learned that it's not the solution that I want, it's not caring about the problem. It's easier to remember the pain than the happiness, but happiness momentarily erases everything bad. DEATH TO SOCKS! Who ever said laughter is the best medicine has never had tonsillitis. Gambling teaches many life lessons AND it's cheaper than tuition!

Trephining

Fact and faith cannot not coexist. Fact: my computer is in front of me. There is no faith in that. Faith: my truck will start the next time, there is no way I can prove that now. Conclusion, to know something means you don't have faith in it, pick one!

Correct me if I am wrong, but you cannot know something and have faith in something at the same time.

Touchdown!

awkward supreme

I think I create awkward situations on purpose subconsciously.

Settle or Affect

You have two options in this world, one, focus on you directly and focus on you indirectly. Option one is what you see the most, people who spend most of their time thinking about their career, their house, their renovated bathroom, their car, their toys, basically every thing that effects the individual. Option two is the people that are actually making this world a better place. They are the ones that are focused on those around them, their environment, their family, basically everything that effects that which effects the individual.
If you didn't catch that, here's an example... someone goes out on a day off to do something but cannot find anything to do, thus complaining that there is nothing to do. Well, take this person and give that attitude to the majority of the population and you get a shitty town, because nobody is doing anything. Now, if said person realized this, what do you think they would do?
The logical thing would be to make something happen for other people to do. You copy this thinking to the majority of the population and you have a great town.

In summary, focus on those are around you who will in turn focus on you. It's what I call righteous selfishness.

... and I'm not saying I'm righteously selfish, lately I've been leaning towards option one and I want to change.

Idiot Encouragment

Why does Chris Crocker exist? Lets put aside our search for God, and try to understand this enigma. I'm not saying this because he's a heshe, or that he is crazy defensive about Britney Spears, or that his voice makes me want to shoot roman candles in my ears. This person has nothing beneficial, positive, educational or meaningful to say! Why does he exist?!!? Why do we encourage him to keep broadcasting garbage! Chris Crocker is the epitome of our cultures desire for brain sewage. He is a cancer of media, a fart of the internet, an eye crusty on an aging dog who no longer has the ability to clean himself. aaaaahhhhh!

Bacon 'n'.... doesn't matter

Update: Schools out, looking but not finding a new job. I'm on the brink of social validation. There is no I in team, except when the rest of you're team sucks. Cookie dough is the best way to gain weight and intestinal parasites is the best way to lose it. If sadness is relative, does the same apply for happiness? Stupidity is like putty. Ruth and Edmund were making Bacon... thanks guys! Believing in Japan doesn't have the same consequences as believe in God, stop using that comparison! This is usually where they take my picture. I've been bottling up my name calling, I look forward to the day it all comes out. Cyndi Lauper is a lair! I care about a town that doesn't care for me because it doesn't care for me. The lack of birth control, apparently, expands your religion better than anything else. I just realized that those who read this know me better than those who don't... is this sad or therapeutic?

Yes until no, but still yes

They will not answer if I ask. They have an answer but will not give, because they don't know why, and they wont know why until I ask, then they will not answer not because they don't want to, but because I asked.

DA-LETED

Everyone has they're place

Bullies, usually, are the ones to tell us when we're being stupid, whereas friends accept us so if there's something to change, we may not know about it. I'm not pro-bully, but we gotta be a little more harsh with the ones we love. The truth is, a lot of people do care what others think of them.

I care for you for me

Update:
I love my town. 5 season finales, 5 reasons to go for a walk. One who flipflops in shame is the one who learns the best. There is power in a hug and calories in chocolate. I'll have to shave my face but I'll pass on shooting people. I don't express myself well and as it turns out I miss a lot of people who have no idea I miss them. I want to support my favorite TV shows so that people don't lose their jobs but I can't support them till I have a good job, (I thought about donating money directly to the producers of the office, so lame). Communication is the problem and the solution. My life in one word... Raitronebtluvatily. My foot hasn't been as loose as I would like. If we remove emotions and groom your logic your left with one truth... righteous selfishness is the foundation of all that is good and pleasing for the many,e.g. Kevin Bacon in Footloose.

Thoughts to ponder:

Democracy isn't just the right to vote, it allows us to approach our representatives with our concerns... stop you're whining and go write a letter!!

Just because Church and state broke up, doesn't mean they still can't be friends

Vote STD... I mean, STV

It kinda makes fun of itself...

"The Sex Party would change Victoria Day to Eros Day to celebrate and encourage sex-positive expression"

"Instruction in sexual gradualism would teach a teen a way to explore the erotic responsiveness of his or her own body without contact with another person"

"The Sex Party would pass legislation requiring all public parks and beaches larger than one hectare to designate areas reserved for nudists."

At least they don't want prostitutes in seniors homes... oh wait, they want that too.


http://www.thesexparty.ca/about-us/platform-provincial

Hate the Haters!!

Talk about contradiction...

A culture of supposed tolerance built upon an inherently intolerant religion with followers, who some believe they are tolerant and others know they are not, that are afraid of those that are intolerant of intolerance.... wtf

The Needs of the Many...

12 days from today...

Do not shy from what you are. For often the insecure find freedom in truth, but the confident and proud fight in vain.

With all this so called light, why aren't we walking the path? If you stare at the torch you lose direction and the torch is useless.

Live long and prosper.

Brain Vomit

Sometimes I just feel like spewing out ideas and since I am overly contemplative...
If God says it's best for us to obey his law, that does not mean it is best for him to do the same, thus, logically, he would not be unfaithful or unjust if he lies or devices.

I do not believe in absolute or universal morality. Some people say that certain actions are " just wrong " or that " it's the right thing to do." Rights and wrongs are simply descriptions of and answer to a question. 2+2=4. 4 is right if you want the logical answer. It is wrong eat poison if you want to live. So, a 'right' or 'wrong' cannot simply exist on its own, they have to be in a response to a question. Why is it wrong to murder? Just because? Or is it the wrong answer to a question. How do we protect ourselves... we do not condone murder, we punish it, we teach ourselves to hate it. That is the 'right' answer. God's laws are to protect us and offer us a chance at a peaceful life ( or so I interpret ). If his 'rights' and 'wrongs' are an answer to a question regarding humans and their condition, then they are not universal, they are simply enforced suggestions for our benefit that if not heeded come with consequences in relative outcome and in the afterlife.

Lets stop calling them sins and start calling them what they are. I think that would make more of an impact.

Politicians, ideally, should care for the people and believe in democracy. If the people choose one, than the other should be happy that democracy been implemented and should offer their support in a positive way. If most people decided they want to cut down all the trees in the world, then democracy says that is what should happen. If people decide they want to destroy all things that cause pollution, then that is what should happen. Democracy is a dictatorship of many. The many should decide what happens.

I like things that are fun. Food tastes good. TV makes me happy. Girls are hot but not the ugly ones. Red pens make me feel like a failure when I fail, boohoo. I've heard of some bands before they were popular, that makes me as cool as them.

what was that?

No really, why do I get away with this stuff?

conflict is not disbelief

Update: I'm currently in a relationship with caffeine. No matter how much stuff I'm involved in, I still find the time to lose my mind. Seriously, I'm not kidding, Flight of the conchords makes me want to vomit because I laugh so hard. Raisins in a cardboard box should NOT BE CONSIDERED CANDY. I realized I'm out of shape when I got exhausted while fighting bad guys in my day dreams. There actually IS joy in cooking! I am an extremist that fluctuates too much to follow through with anything. I wonder what Kevin Bacon is doing right now. I have learned many a life lessons from Star Trek, no really. Believing in Japan is not comparable to believing in God. Future shop won again, damn it! I am so in the dark, assumptions make the foundation of perception (that last comma was not a mistake). You can't change the world if your tired, get some sleep!

I wish people would make fun of me when they think I'm being ridiculous.

Garble... And Then Some

Education makes you smarter
but is not a sufficient to being a leader of men.

Confidence can get you far,
however, it can scare off less confident wisdom.

An eye that sees perfection amidst the chaos is foolish
an eye that sees the chaos is perfect holds too much power

One that lacks understanding and love has nothing to offer
A group of many that lack the same dim the light of hope.


Questions?

Does one reject a cry for help from one who can help themselves?

If an undesirable extreme presents itself, should the alternative extreme be considered? Go big or go home?



I'm afraid that the truth about our relative perspectives makes this life undefinable.

Song of Paulomon

Everything is forgotten on the dance floor. It's not what you drive it's how you drive it. If you don't embrace your inner monster, how will it ever listen to you. Consistency is good, but without being extreme, you're just boring. If you don't say it, they'll never know. The switch that turns off emotions should go both ways. If you've never told anyone to fuck off, you're missing out. If you've never told anyone you need them, you're missing out. We are products of our environment, which is something we can change. If you don't doubt it, then you don't have faith in it. It's ok to escape, as long as you know how to come back. People hate when they are not loved.

8% Daily Intake?!

Update: New job, new bills, new hobbies. I've realized that having a job keeps me sane. Peanut butter is good to have around, just in case. I've been learning a lot about myself lately, more so about why I do the things I do. I've discovered San Pelle, mmmmm. Family is a good enough reason... if you don't understand now, you will. Battlestar Galactic has won by a frackin' land slide. Love the attraction and love the connection are different, if you didn't know that, you might be living a lie. People who chew with their mouth open are more rude than those who tell them to stop. I love my hockey league, love the connection that is. That damned dog needs to stop barking! If you've never hated a part of yourself, you've never grown. If you've never tried Big Eds, you've never lived. I want to want to .... I can't say that. Bob beat Lothar?!!? I will learn the angry dance, but I'll be happy every moment of it. I wish I had a cat. You can't care unless you've been cared for. Downloading is way cheaper than renting. Universal right and wrongs don't exist, I dare you to prove me wrong. I freakin' love driving forklift. I eat like a smoker smokes. I just wanna hang out and laugh, I'm starting to think that is what life is all about.

Top ten things to do when you're bored

10. Paint something
9. Create a problem to fix (eg. tie your car keys to the neighbors cat)
8. Write a story about a plumber who has a high sensitivity to smell
7. Make an elaborate meal from things only purchased at a dollar store
6. make a top ten list
5. Read up on an obscure topic, like the joy of stacking
4. Write a brutally honest letter to someone who needs it
3. Move away, don't tell anyone, and leave only GPS coordinates to where you are going
2. Practice dancing for wedding receptions... but I wouldn't know

and the number one thing to do when you're bored is....


1. Phone a friend.

Didn't see that one coming did ya?

Mumbo Jumbo

Hmm, it seems things are changing. I'm finding myself surprised by my new perspectives. There have been lows, even times when I didn't think I'd make it (not what you think), but in the last few years I've come to understand myself and what drives me. This to me is a wonderful feeling. In that sensationalized movie, Into The Wild, there was a great moment in the end of the movie when he realizes that all the beauty and "freedom" isn't worth it if it isn't shared. I think that's what we all want. To share what we find beautiful with someone else who sees what we see. Unfortunately a good number of people never find that. That to me is the single saddest thing on this planet.

I started a new paragraph for emphasis. Now, you might expect me to say something like " I believe i've found that person" or "nobody gets me and it's so lonely." If I did, how'd you know if I actually meant it? I mean this is just a blog, a form of expression where I control how you view me. My purposes could be tainted by insecurities, need for sympathy, hope that a certain someone will read this or (and the most likely) vanity. It's like when guys write poetry to get in someone's pants or when a girl talks about the sad things in her life not because she's sad but because she's lonely.


They say you should be dependent on God and God alone, but I say we find God through people and people alone.

Run On Sentences Are Great.

Update: I learned that the thermistor saves lives everyday, but most people have no idea what it is. My new favorite CG movie is Wall-E. I've been working at a Rogers foods for about 4 months and I still like it. Peanut butter shouldn't be eaten in large quantities. My love for startrek has increased, for starwars decreased, for stargate increased. Though girls are crazy, it's me that's the problem. If we are incapable of actually sensing the spiritual, then we have to believe whatever shows us the most power, and since technology without understanding can seem like magic, we're screwed. True love is comparable to drug addiction, at first it's just fun and exciting, but that turns into a powerful need, and one can be weaned off over time but not without withdrawals. Most people daydream about... wait I haven't a clue, but they probably don't fantasize about creating electronically based intelligence (not artificial intelligence). They only reason I ride my bike to school is because I've become desperate to save money... sometimes misplaced values pave the road to good things. When I say the word "God" i don't feel right, it's not actually his name ( biblically speaking), so I've started referring to him as "hey you!" ( if rejects me because of that then he doesn't want me for me). Kevin Bacon has a name and is omnirelational within 7 degrees of separation. Love, the addiction, will not save this world, love, the choice, will. There's a reason why people love House and Cox, my guess is because we live in a world of fluffy love everything lets not hurt peoples feelings your not annoying your different your not painfully stubborn your strong willed make love not war follow your heart church bred men who can't say fuck when they want to don't offend the gays respect your elders by not telling them when their assholes when they clearly are run from confrontation words like idiot are not PC kinda world. ( say that three times fast). I'll count it gain if I start using the word idiot more often. I want a music consult. I'm not kidding, I seriously believe I have the basic design for creating intelligence. I miss ignorance and pokemon.

Realization!

My idea of heaven, with respect to my current desires, would be a peaceful society of exploration... in other words, star trek.

somethings are better left unsaid

Remember, lets not get ahead of ourselves. Just because we get one chance a thousand times, doesn't mean our failures don't hurt.

"Like a spider bite that infects the skin, it grows in my head. Something that should have brought peace is reigning terror. It all seems well and good until it's not all well and good. We are lost." - D. Walters

La-haze-ee

Someone should give me an update... i'm tired

S.L. is not... worth it

I'm so angry with you!!!! When we were together we were such a good team, yes we had our differences and yes you didn't make parts of my life easy, but we had such an understanding. Why did you have to do what you did, why did you have to become such a bitch?!?! I hate you so much! It's as like when you were leaving, you made is so that I'd feel as much pain as possible. The ways I use to ease the pain have become ineffective. You became a monster! I had to let you go! You weren't doing me any good, you have to understand that. I can't get you off my mind, the pain is just to close. You have left scares that will always be there to remind me of the pain you put me through! I do get some satisfaction in the fact you'll never be able to hurt me or anyone every again.
I'll be much happier without you and you're poison!